恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲

二〇二〇进入尾声

这年纪这疫情你就别想出门倒数趴趴走（放眼望去四下也没朋友！

我觉得可以乘着空挡意思意思秀一秀文笔

大家都在回顾过去完成了什么大事经历了什么磨难

今年过的与往年大不相同

疫情关系导致封国封城

平时我们所谓的“习以为常”皆烟消云散

所有的“理所当然”也一并远去

封国MCO期间

想说疫情关系我选择Work From Home在家工作

就应该好好利用闲暇时间做些有意义之事……（这就是错误的开端

天真的以为WFH能有所谓“闲暇时间” —— 错中之错

人人皆练就十八般武艺中至少一两大招

——在线健身

——大秀厨艺

——在线直播网卖

——开启被动收入赚钱模式 

等等等

在这个被世俗眼光绑架的社会

你没择其一你就OUT了！！！

确实

在MCO初期果真如此

为了促进社会的进步和发展

不想被淘汰就必须与时俱进（激动握拳

小女也开始随波逐流跟随大众的步伐（请看回部落格上上篇章

但

从那时候起的整整八个月

根本是荣登我短短工作六年生涯之

最忙碌

最艰辛

它说第二没人敢说第一之冠

但开什么玩笑

冒险家如我当然是抱着

白浪滔滔我不怕 的 精神

撑起舵儿往前划 的 决心

打算跟它大干一番（到底它是谁？

好了说故事时间终于来了（没错就是现在才来

这故事经典在于

我觉得它值得在我人生篇章里占有一席之地

就是那种老人家口中的过了这个劫就平平安安了的坎

就是所谓一本书里的比较精彩注目的一高潮迭起环节

八月中旬

准确来说八月十五二〇二〇

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲第一篇章

一如往常晚上九点或瑜伽或皮拉提斯或HIIT后

我感觉少了运动完后的大汗淋淋心情舒畅

取而代之是右下腹被一百只大象duai duai duai踩过去的痛

是噗雷噗雷的痛（新之助粉丝hi

没别的 我心想

应该就是盲肠炎了

有了我老姐盲肠炎痛了三个礼拜的世界记录

我其实没在担心

根本老神在在想说好吧

这点痛 在漫漫苦苦的人生中算得了什么

忍痛到隔天才入院手术吧

撇开一整晚翻来覆去无法入眠

痛到醒来吐得稀里哗啦

我期待的黎明终于到来了

YAY

手术后我就是条好汉了对吧（咦？

冗长的入院手续我就不说了

反正就不是我想象中的盲肠炎

但也算是满普遍的女人病/Ovarian torsion

意思就是

在我奋不顾身运动后导致卵巢/ovary + 输卵管/fallopian tube扭转

但病因是右卵巢有一个历史悠久的9x4cm的囊肿/cyst

由于疫情紧张时期

从入院后到被推入手术房全程无人陪伴

我一小女子独挑大梁进行挑战

护士小姐姐们推我进手术房的路程

真的就象连续剧的慢镜头般

看着天花板上的灯一盏一盏的过

推进医用病床电梯后那封闭式的尴尬氛围

麻醉药师跟我确认身份及大约讲解手术流程的紧张时刻

让我打消满满快溢出来的紧张感的风趣谈话

还依稀记得他那顶可爱的米奇老鼠手术帽

从病床被抬到冰冰凉凉的手术台

手术台上亮的无法睁眼的聚光灯

最后的最后

倒数十秒的麻醉输入……

一切的一切彷佛还历历在目

麻醉药清醒后的那一睁眼

看见的是病床前方的挂钟

忘了几点 但是是个凌晨

我伸手找寻在手术前放到床头柜的手机

跟家人男友报了平安后

闭上眼又进入深深睡眠

隔天睡醒才发现

身体左侧系着一血袋 右侧系着一尿袋

医生探访时说

“always bring your two friends with you……”

我的医生真他妈的幽默（请原谅我的语助词

ANYWAY

当然可想而知

我完全胜任挑战

手术顺利成功

不怕不怕好汉还是有生育能力哈哈哈

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲第二篇章

接下来在我老爸老妈来探望我的中午

没错中午

原因院方防疫措施关系

一天只有两次两个小时的探病时间

一次只能有两位探病者

彷佛时隔一世纪之久终于见到亲人

我当然兴高采烈

当儿

我表演右侧下床以示我复原能力良好

这时你想起些什么了吗？

对了

就是那两位医生介绍我的新朋友啊

我真的就忘记了其中左边那位血袋朋友

啊结果一扯

就左侧血崩了

可能因为止痛药关系我感受不到伤口疼痛

但是溢出的血是多到让我觉得整个屁股湿湿的

护士小姐姐们用小跑步进出我的病房

邀请我老爸老妈回避

小姐姐A与B替我止血更替纱布

小姐姐C在旁辅助

小姐姐D打电话给医生求指示到底输血管应该重新植入与否

ANYWAY

当然可想而知

我再次挑战成功

只是苦了我年事已高的两老让他们受惊不少

你以为episode结束了吗

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲第三篇章

可能手术是laparoscopic（方法是向腹腔内充入的二氧化碳 通常手术几天后会自行缓解

我整个肚子涨的跟一颗球没两样

同一天晚上

我一度呼吸困难到必须按铃求救

真的就像做戏一般

护士小姐姐们再次用小跑步进出我的病房

拿有的没的往我身上贴一堆

告诉我不要紧张 深呼吸

好像肚子那颗球里面是个宝宝准备生产那般

ANYWAY

当然可想而知

我三度挑战成功

终于

八月十八二〇二〇

风和日丽 凉风习习

正是个好汉出院的好日子

心想得了

乘着三十天的病假

把工作职责有的没的该死的责任心先搁一旁不谈

让我好好复习MCO必学之十八般武艺吧（仰天长啸

回到家后

事与愿违的行动非常之不便外

腹部胀感也迟迟没有褪去

好死不死

每一个夜晚都发高烧无法入睡

但隔天便奇迹般退烧

除了没胃口吃任何食物外人也格外没精神

几乎整天昏昏欲睡

老妈男友见我状况没好转

苦口婆心劝说下

八月二十二二〇二〇

我再次回到医院找我的主治医生诊断……

看着我的验血报告

语重心长的我的医生说到

“I think it's better to get you admitted, have you taken your lunch?”

那时是接近午餐时间

我听了心想

“又？！”

简直像在看缩时摄影

发生的一切如同快转

星期六的傍晚

我又独自回到熟悉的等候室

必须再次体验最痛恨最害怕的CT scan

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲最终章

答案晚上揭晓

医生给了我没有最难只有更难之选择题

选择一 

隔天马上再在第一次laparoscopic手术的伤口动刀

但是

有几率是血块太大必须要C-sec（更大面积的伤口

选择二

等radiologist星期一上班 

看看能不能用radiology清除血块且不必再开刀（least invasive

但是

有几率是血块太大而无法用此方法清除以致回去选择一

如此选择题你会怎么答

重点是这道题没人知道准确答案哟

反正横竖都是一死

我条好汉就放手一搏决定隔天星期天立马再开刀

好好一个人干嘛活得那么苟且活得多心焦虑（握拳

其实我当然没那么潇洒

那一个夜黑风高的夜晚独自一人不说

光想想要再次经历开刀过程及之后的种种不适

我人生至此还真没如此煎熬过

说什么坚强的好汉都是熬过来的

我根本全靠死撑

这一次被推进手术室前

除了有我老妈老妹的目送之外

也多了一道输血程序

前后总共输了三袋A型血

和把喂的肥肥胖胖的猪拿去宰割同样原理无误

一切如同déjà vu般

经历准确一星期前所经历的

此时眼看这位戴着唐老鸭手术帽的麻醉师说到

“Hey it's you again”

我差点老泪纵横

你那该死的亲切感是与生俱来的吗

“You made a good decision”（拍拍我的肩膀

我当下真的眼眶泛泪

当我知道血红素正常值是12g/dl

而我的是6的时候

真的该庆幸爱我的人逼我做了对的选择回去医院

天知道继续躺在家做所谓的休息

实在奄奄一息

会不会流血过多而发生些什么鸟事

麻醉师又开始倒数了

十……

九……

八……

七……

后记

懂我的人皆知

其实我很害怕被亲朋戚友姨妈姑姐来势汹汹的关心给淹没

所以从事发到康复阶段近两月我都不发一语

已经够负能量了的社交平台也不差我这一出

一些朋友从些小地方看出端倪进而问候

你们的关心我都心知

也很感谢你们对我的了解以及不打扰

感恩

回头你看看你看看

我这不是说了吗

且幽默风趣如我

不是再度把故事阐述的栩栩如生

你们也看得开心点（呃 有吗

那段时间其实很煎熬

第二次手术后医生有给我系上吗啡为止痛

但是勇士如我

当然可想而知

我N度挑战成功没有使用一丁丁

康复时期特别长

我的后遗症也多到我一度怀疑人生

二次手术后我一度伤口发炎一度疑似骨痛热症几度胃酸倒流

笑问苍天我人生这是何苦

一开始认为迷宫般的医院

曾几何时变成我的常顾之地

连医生都觉得我这个病人并非等闲之辈

累了我家两老及老妹不止

还需每天提心吊胆不是进出医院就是在旁服侍

也让在对岸的大姐及男友担心

看着他们心疼的目光

因为无助默默无语

隔着屏幕一起落泪

这些不算是真爱算什么（喂~

健康真的很重要

定期做身体检查很重要

为自己买份量身打造的保险很重要

说到这里有没有像是广告植入

其实我的被动式收入是卖保险（喂喂不是啦~

Prudential保险经纪是我的中学同学

很感谢他为了客户的事那么上心也尽心尽力

谁要联络方式可以找我拿

真心推荐

医院的医生护士都很有爱心

因为我的情况特殊医生也主动给了我她的个人号码

好死不死好几次都用上了

还有要不是那个麻醉师

我真的会更加难熬个一千两百万倍

说到这

那顶该死的卡通手术帽又再次浮现在我脑海挥之不去……

然后谢谢你

愿意把文看到这里

也谢谢你能够忍受我的胡言乱语

希望二〇二一大家都健健康康快快乐乐

希望我们的大地母亲可以快快痊愈

然后大家能收拾行李

去见见想念的人

去看看偌大的世界

-仪-

先放上几天前跟FaFa合照的我让你们垫垫胃

因为以下图片或许会令你感到不适 

别说我没警告你

初来乍到 老妹送我进来后就被邀请了出去

这就是做CT scan前的等候室

第一次手术后的隔天中午

第一次手术的影像 不知哪边是哪边 反正就不是什么美丽的景观

第二次手术 由于失血过多 抽不出血
我的左手白白被扎了六次后 护士小姐姐这才说 那我们换手好不好
你不等明年才说（翻桌 

这就是我之前提起的
准备被拿去宰割前的输血

跟老妈的深情对望 忘了当下说了些什么
反正我是知道哭红了双眼无数次

第二次入院观察时间比较长一丁丁 没记错我呆了六天
这应该是出院前的晚上

第二次手术清除血块的影像
 看着还真像宰猪会看到的血淋淋的情景

如果说我是27号中午出院 27号晚上又重新回到这个鬼地方
看着老爸老妈苍老的背影 内心是无法言喻的愧疚

好啦就这样告一段落
最后最后 谢谢啦大家
心领了

恶梦就该死的滚边凉快去好吗

二〇二〇真的完结了

二〇二一我们看着办

---------------------我是分割线---------------------

现在是十二月三十一二〇二〇 2246hrs

我刚才灵光一闪

如果你有耐心爱心同情心读到这里

以另一个层面来说 

我几乎算是陪伴你度过倒数跨年耶

呃

那就祝福你（还是您？！

新年快乐

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欢迎到时再来光临

The Stunning Komodo National Park in 2019

If there's ever been a time for reflection, it is now. This festive season is oddly lonely for good reason. Everything is not the same anymore to us all. We wake up each day knowing that normality is suspended. And sure enough it won't resume in the near future. December marks the 9th close to 10th month Le Bf and I have not seen each other - longest record as yet. 

It's been one year since we travelled abroad. We have been working in SG for the past 6 years and each year we make it a ritual to go for at least a year-end trip to wrap up the year. Except 2020.

Last year, Le Bf was at a phase of loving sunshine and outdoor activities and remote islands after his trip to Semporna Island in May. Since then, he had been constantly looking and exploring islands around the globe. The more remote it is located the better. Like a pirate looking for next easy target - outside of public radar. 

So last year December, Le Bf and I did not plan for a faraway destination, instead we he chose a "kinda" isolated island nearby - Komodo Island. It became Insta/FB-famous after some "celebrities" shared those Instaworthy-pics online. I'm glad that he found out sooner so we could still enjoy the tranquil vibe. You know how some places become a big hoo-ha and can be overrated. I assure you this place is nothing short of paradise. Oh well given that you really enjoy the nature and simply comfortable with just being yourself and your companion. Chillax and nothing else. Simplicity is key. 

I was captivated by the amazing nature scenes the national park offers. There were A LOT of firsts. 

We stayed on a boat (not the luxurious type, to say the least) and living at the ocean for 3 nights

Our boat was well maintained and it really depends on your luck which "Explorer" boat you take. Ours was a beautiful double-decker and we slept on top with the view only you can imagine throughout the 4 days 3 nights. Credit to the travel mate we thankfully met on the boat for the drone shot.

Boat gently rocking us to sleep in the middle of nowhere (solar panel is used and so no generator making noises), nothing in sight, complete darkness and beyond. Waken up by the first ray of sun and sound of calming sea water.

I wasn't lying when I said we just chilled and did nothing. Except for the time we were down for a dip or out exploring the places.

Or getting some tanning. That's how I got such ugly tan hahahaha I just laid there not giving a damn what I wore

The "adventurers" on boat

Looking for a few endangered Komodo dragon before our very eyes

They are the largest living lizard in the world. Not fancy I know.

Appreciating the light at sunset with zero blocking

Watching tens of thousands of bats flying across the sky

 Experiencing outdoor cinema. 

One night we watched Moana (a Disney character who was chosen to journey across the sea to save the world) on boat elevated the experience and made it even cooler

The ever stunning scenery

It took us I-forgot-how-long to climb to the top with such amazing view.

Imagine this was the very first spot we visited and you just couldn't help looking forward what brings you next. 

Pink Beach!!! The pink is surreal. Thanks to the drone shot to make it justice (I hope)

I'd say all the photos are at their truest forms without editing. Oh well maybe minimal like crop/adjust brightness

Taka Makassar is the name

That beautiful

This was the place we first found baby sharks. What a great time to just chill in the sea 

Sailing with dolphins, swimming with a giant manta, sea turtles and baby sharks and exploring the beautiful coral reef. Too bad we don't have a GoPro or something to capture those moments. But they are all imprinted in our minds...

Simply showing off my tan. and maybe the butt cheeks too lol.

I got easily 3 or 4 shades darker

A simple hearty meal after some "workouts" was really satisfying.

It could be too simple. But the view isn't.

Meet my friends! 

Our last day on boat. It was such a bitter-sweet feeling.

Leaving one unique stay for another equally special experience.

This is it! The hut!

Hello. This was our room for 2 nights. Originally it was only 1 night but we found it too lovely and would be such a waste to leave the next day.

Look at how cute it is!

I think it only took us about 2 hours to fully explore this small private island

Meals are decent. Definitely more "Instaworthy" compared to our boat meals. But no complaints!

Cocktails a must. Look at the scorching sun.

This is the entire group to have the island all by ourselves. Spot me! We had our Vietnamese dinner that night with all other travelers coming from different parts of the world. Before Covid hit us. This sounds like a distant tales.

the campfire that night.

Weather is usually very nice. Nice as in, very sunny. A little too much sun in fact but again no complaints. The clouds cleared after I took this photo. The islander told us this place has never rained. So they said.

Everything on the island is perfect I'd say. From the friendly staff, the funny guests, down to smallest details like the equipment rental. They have got you covered!

I actually wanted to stop here but hey, our stay on the mainland Labuan Bajo was very nice too! So why not show off a bit of that piece of land? 

It's quite popular among the many travelers to Labuan Bajo/Komodo Island

Seaesta is the name.

I'd say nicest restaurant in the small town -La Cucina. 
Why three you asked? 

We met Jessica on the mainland. We knew nothing about Dutch directness until we met her. And those drone shot photos credited to her! 

Now really time to wrap things up. All in all, the photos don't really sum up our trip. Like the undersea, the snorkeling, the kayaking. 

Le Bf and I were completely immersed in nature throughout the journey and utterly enjoyed it. The whole entire trip was magical and if I must add, nourishing. We’ve been to quite some places over the years. But none of them quite like this one. We will definitely come back, Labuan Bajo.

Love,

Ee

Malaysia MCO

I used to update a new post upon entering a new year. This long overdue post was likely because 2019 flew by too quickly I didn’t catch up soon enough it IS already 2020.

I thought maybe this is not an afterall bad idea to write down something during this MCO (movement control order, just in case few years down I forget what'd happened back in 2020). I bet people my age might not have a clear understanding of the aftermath of SARS in 2003. We are, however, living through this surreal COVID-19 pandemic together. 

SURREAL is the word to me. Two months ago I couldn't have imagined living and staying indoor for over a month; I do now. Malaysia implemented the MCO since 18 Mar 2020, the day which will definitely go down into Malaysian's history. The "before" and "after" effect is too much of a change given that my birthday was only 3 days prior.

I've got my boss's blessing to stay in JB with my family (generous and understanding act I know I'm lucky) during this difficult time. With Singapore's CB lockdown (no pun intended, again to avoid confusion, Circuit Breaker lol), I see no end to this work-from-home life. Nobody can tell when will all these be over. For the record, this also marks the longest period I have not seen le Bf (whom is based in SG). I'm sure we are not alone. Undoubtedly many couples out there, married unmarried, having children or not, are going through this tough time together. 

Despite all threats due to this pandemic, economy or health, mentally or physically, I'm glad (still) to find the so-called work-life balance I never really had experienced before; Spending time with the family, balanced diet (or homecook rather?), daily workout, quality me-time and the list goes on. 

To be honest, the new daily routine/lifestyle I grew over the past one month is giving me the productivity and higher efficiency at work (I'm busier than ever). Perhaps many of you can relate now.

1. I literally make full use of my time since, first thing in the morning I open my eyes, skipping all the hassles of preparing and commuting for work (THESE! Easily save us 1 - 2 hours at the very least), working in my pj until breakfast time (prepared by my little sis). I know right #有妹妹真好

I must say she has talent to opening a breakfast joint, like for real. To say the least, she's quick to prepare, and it's yummy! We tried the internet viral Dalgona coffee, taro milk, taro/yam-ball, kimchi fried rice, pumpkin cake, all kinda crepes and pancakes and sandwiches. I only help with the dishes but sometimes I did leave everything behind to catch a concall at 10am. She da best. 

2. I'd make use of lunch time for some yoga flow practice (new habit) if I wasn't too occupied with work. Going for takeout or ordering delivery is never my task, but paying for it is. 

3. Emails after emails. Calls after calls then, it's tea time! Some caffeine fixed and/or little treats. On days we feeling luxurious (during MCO Phase 1, not anymore), we ordered some snacks/cakes online; On the other days I shared a cup of 3-in-1 coffee with my mom just to get through the day. I might skip this on some days depending on the workload. 

4. Dinner time. Singing praises to my mom's ever-evolving cooking skill. She did unlock a few new dishes during this period. You see la even auntie also never stops learning new stuff. During the time she wasn't on her daily house chores, she's constantly on her iPad, browsing through Youtube or FB for new recipes. Her menu's just getting longer by day. 

To give you a better details of what I'm having these days. New dishes unlocked including but not limited to 南乳炸肉、大肠焖卤肉、咖喱杂菜魔鬼鱼、东炎苏东

Of course the dinner wouldn't be like this every day. But I must say we are the really fortunate ones without having worried about our meals. Because my mama simply best.

We siblings created this hashtag long before but I think its frequency shot through the roof during this MCO just because. #莉莉饭店 #DidyRestaurant 

5. 9pm Daily workout routine with the little sis (BTW the elder sis is trapped in SG poor thing she's definitely sibeh envious so yah). With the pics above you know why we must workout each day, although we take very little portion to none white rice some times. We follow some Instagram live workout, or youtube channels we both liked. Minimally a 45mins - 1hr workout be it Pilates or HIIT or Zumba you name it we tried it. 

 

Taken earlier after completing today's. "Eh come lets take a pic for my blog today," I said.

From 17th Mar onward, I wore my iWatch only during workout. The active calories ring is pre-set to 300cal/day, exercise ring is 30mins/day. 

Kinda proud to declare I made it up to date without a miss. 

For someone who has lack of discipline, this is definitely a self-achievement lol. I wonder how would I keep this up after the MCO or rather, losing a workout partner. 

6. I do have some me-time during the weekends and those are really something I look forward to and totally enjoying it. I read, I play piano, I watch variety shows and laugh over it, I make a mess in the kitchen with my sis. Recent two weeks I have a new weekly call (we even tried karaoke once!) with the bffs on Sundays to update each others' lives and shits. 

I read 3 books during the MCO. For non book lovers you may skip the below a. b. and c. I don't wanna waste your time. :P

a. I started Flawed in beginning of March? And only be disappointed by the end knowing it is a duology. Then I received its sequel Perfect as a thoughtful birthday gift. You can imagine how happy I was. They are works from Cecelia Ahern (the author of my favorite PS I Love You and Where Rainbow Ends). They are my first dystopian setting novels and frankly I kinda enjoy it.

b. Started the second book during MCO. Lucky was definitely one of the heavy-hearted reads. Despite the book named itself, it was a truly brutal memoir from the author of The Lovely Bones (you must have heard this, a psychological fiction I read and liked it too. Though the movie didn't make its justice, yeah I watched during the MCO). It was about a brutal rape she encountered her very self and the aftermath. I can't give you more details because they are so explicitly raw you have to read it yourself to get through the journey of the whole course. In my opinion, this follows after my #1 memoir, The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch. 

c. The third book, which I'd just finished reading today, The Chemist by Stephenie Meyer. Yah I know but I assured you this is not Twilight or the likes. Guess what this is a spy-thriller! Although I got bored maybe at 35% milestone (u gotta know this is a thick 500+ fiction), but I continued since I have plenty of time especially over the weekend. Not really recommended unless you're like me, running out of reading materials. I just couldn't stand the romance she added so conveniently into the plot. I actually like the epilogue the best, like seriously! 

I finished it today. At the epilogue I decided to have a 3-in-1 and shared with my mom. Talk about routine... ;) I know people my age usually opt to read some self-help or non-fiction, but I like the reading process where I get to experience different lifestyles through the characters in fictions. The good ones will get you linger for more, that's the satisfaction of reading a real good book. 

So far I have not watched any drama, I've got no time for it can you believe it. I scroll Instagram and FB before I sleep, that accounts to my weekday leisure really. Of course I won't be working a full 9 to 6 every day. Maybe once or twice a week I'd have some gaps in between and my little sis happened to be inspired by some online random recipe, and there we go, making a chaos in the kitchen (with mom's approval she the queen in charge). 

Writing up till now, I finally know why I don't find this MCO boring. So far it is eventful, I have a purpose of my everyday life. Haha it sounded big but actually it's all down to the simple stuff we do. 

Sharing you this most random birds chipping at the balcony. 

I lost track of the day some times and the weeks flew by. This is not an unbearable period to me, in fact I kinda enjoy the solitude it brings. 

I hope you are well. And let's brace through this tough time and hopefully the mother earth is also taking her time to heal. 

PS: it's getting late and tomorrow is Monday! I dont have time to proofread it so yah, bear with me!

Love,
Ee