Lately | Piano Cover: If Only by JJ Lin

Lately...

=Piano Cover=

Hmm... after one and a half year, here's another cover. (Guilty)

可惜没如果_If Only —— 林俊杰_JJ Lin

reference pianosheet

=Coffee=

with my lady @ FOC

with my siblings @ The Ink Brew by Just Want Coffee

with the Bf @ FOC

with my book @ FOC

=Book=

Done with this book like finally. Rex and the City. A good read. If you fond of dogs, or any animal you will find this memoir interesting and lighthearted.

Rex was a broken dog, fixed.

“Rex and the City is hands-down the best
human-with-dog memoir you will ever read!”
~ Bark magazine


Some quotes I jotted them down:

"Usually I believed in that sort of things--I believe that people came together, not by chance, but by subconscious intentions; I believed that path crossed for reasons that you had to stick around to understand."

"I realized that giving brings you nothing but gain."

"I always felt that if you have known great sorrow, you can appreciate joy that much more, because you have experienced its opposite."

Current read: A Mother's Love by Barbara Greene, Vanessa Howard

"In this life, we may learn that little is certain, that happiness can arrive when least expected, or that it is often only recognized in its passing. Live long enough and we learn that it is often the smallest moments that become the most cherished: the moment when a child seeks out a mother's hand to place in its own, or just the sound of the child's sudden laughter from another room.

Life teaches us many things, but perhaps the hardest lesson of all is that with life comes the possibility of death."

And I...

--drum roll please-- 

just turned 24 yesterday.

=Birthday=

simple celebration back at home.

die die wanted to pose funny.

look at those candles.

how serious. 

24 and don't care.

muacks...

earlier on. ugly though but still love this shot.
15/03/2015 0000hrs.

alright a normal one.
Thanks.

Yay.

Nothing more.

It's a wrap.

love,

Ee

Bye 2014

2015 is approaching. I still remember the last minute I was struggling whether or not to post a review of my year 2013, and the next minute, it's the end of year 2014! God, where has all the time gone?

I haven't even blogged about my Christmas last year and bomb! Year 2015 is coming. I used to look forward to the coming of December, was so so into Christmas during the past, it was my favourite festive season out of all (and my baby sister's birthday). Spreading love and joy and happiness and all. This year's Christmas was just another normal day to me.

Christmas 2013. I had time to sketch and doodle and draw.

When I first entered my company I currently work in, many times I almost said I'm 22. I had always thought that 'I'm 22'. I still remember how proud I was when I just entered 18 years old. Young and bold and crazy. College and hangouts and boys(?)

Gone were the days.


Turning into 24 real soon. Am still young though. Maybe not that carefree like I used to. Maybe I don't really mean what I say all the time. Maybe I would try to fit in to this society I once despised. Point is, I don't know what exactly would happen to me, and I don't know what decision I would make at that point of time. If you heard, change is the only constant in life. I forgot where I learnt this sentence, but I admire whoever had said this.

We always wish things to stay the same, to remain the status you feel comfortable with, but we often forget, everything is impermanent. People grow old with times, kids become teenagers then turn into adults. Friends become lovers, lovers become husband and wife and then parents, grandparents. Even technology, iPhone 3G, 4, 5, 6, who knows? As long as we can't freeze the time, things change.

It's like, I used to have my small car in JB, I could come and go freely. I could drive to town 15km away from home and have a cup of latte. I still can, when I back to my hometown. In Singapore, I need to take public transport wherever I go. I have to take a 30 minutes bus ride to my work place which is like 3km away from my place. This is change.

There is a whole bunch of new things I have to do in year 2015, a whole bunch of new situations I have to handle and a whole bunch of hardships I have to overcome. I actually kinda looking forward to the new year. I start earning, saving; planning, spending. Although I over-spend sometimes, I buy things I don't really need, I don't know where has my money gone, but overall a pretty good feeling about spending my own money. And it all wouldn't happen if I didn't go through everything I had done. I feel unreasonably proud of myself. Now I truly feel like an adult.

There's good and bad in everything.

I feel the responsibility fell upon me. I have a say, I have to bear whatever consequences. I once said blogging was like part of my life, but now I don't really feel free doing so. This blog was my territory. I feel it's now intruded for no apparent reason. Or I feel exposed under others' judgements. I was so care free I didn't give a damn about what others think of me. I do now. 时间搞得鬼？ I'm wondering if this is part of the deals of growing up.

I've been saying this tons of times I don't get bored of saying this one more time, I will at least stay true to myself, to this blog I've been using since young.

This year is probably, overwhelming to me. Completing my degree, falling down too hard, getting stitches for the first time, getting a job, starting my career life in Singapore, etc.. Overall a fruitful year. Only if I could kick the 'fall down' incident out of the list. 可惜没如果.


Feeling kinda wasted if I don't post this out since this is Christmas season. It's been delayed for a year...

Christmas 2013 handmade card to my friends. Back then I had time to really drew, cut, pasted, tied, wrote all things. This year I couldn't do it. This is change.

Which one was yours?

DIY. My so-called 百宝盒

Not printed stuff. I should have sold it for pocket money. Could I?

Again, gone were the days.... Sadly, I should have spent time on doing something for my friends on this Christmas. I didn't feel the joyful spirit this year.




Anyway...


I feel that if you are to make a list of new year's resolutions and cannot fulfill at the end, try making a list you wish you can continue doing in year 2015.

Maybe I was the one who couldn't attend to my resolutions, here are something I hope I can at least keep up for.

1. Read

I didn't count how many books I read in this year, but mostly good reads. This, The Rose Petal Beach is exceptional, unlike other Dorothy Koomson's books I found very loving warming, this is a romantic thriller.

2. Draw/doodle/sketch

This Christmas bear was for Michelle. If not mistaken.

3. Practice piano more often and cover songs if possible

Aim to cover this. JJ Lin's latest song,

可惜没如果.

Warning: super addictive, recent favourite.

4. Cafe hop

ambitiously hope that I can differentiate a latte and a flat white.

Passions above work!

Haha nahh just saying. I need money or else I wouldn't be in Singapore earning dollars.

There are many quotes I'd love to share with you, my favourite book ever (again) Tuesday with Morrie, happened to match what I'm blogging today. Some I might share with you before, but anyway...

"As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed as ignorant as you were at twenty-two, you'd always be twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it." 

"The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. Most of us live somewhere in the middle. A wrestling match. Which side wins? Love wins. Love always wins."

"I like myself better when I'm with you."


 ― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie 

Who would you hurt in the name of love? 

No one. Never.

There won't be too much love exists in the world. Especially when so many disasters, unfortunate things happened in this year.

In year 2015, continue to love.

I wish you a happy new year.

Peace.



love,
Ee

Logic AND Gate

An impromptu update before hitting sack. It's just something I feel I should jot it down for future reference. Haha. Or I think I'd like to recall back when I get older.

6 hours ago...

Le bf and I were going back separately from the same mrt platform, just heading to different ways. I am always the one who leaves first, so when the train door's closing, I looked back and he's already looking, which, for most of you is a pretty normal bf-gf thing but for me, it was the first.

I told him about this feeling I've got and he just (shrug, "I thought I always do that") took it as nothing. Although I know deep down he acknowledged the importance of me telling him (or aren't you?). Taking things the slightest way, ignoring each other for the longest of time kinda stuff is the game we always play. I used to be the winner but painfully losing every game lately.

They said the best feeling in the world is when you look at someone he's already staring. I couldn't agree more. But we shall set rules in here: that someone cannot be a stranger/hater/boss/teacher. Right? And that someone cannot be staring or blunt looking at u, it must be a loving longing look. Right right?? Make sense? It's like a logic AND gate, only 1-1 can open the gate, 1-0, 0-1, 0-0 cannot.

Another thing was, when I was on the way back to my place, by bus, there's an Indian little boy I assumed at the age of 4-5, he's shooting me with his imaginary gun on his hand. Without giving much thoughts, I pretended I got hit and then shot him back with my "7" pose. I guess I terrified him, guess he didn't expect to receive any response from people around because everyone's so busy with whatever world that's living in their HPs/tablets. He then sent signal to his mother who sat beside him, ("oh shit oh shit what if his mother stares at me or what not") that Indian auntie smiled at me and gave me a nod, then whispered something to her boy, who then gave me another two deadly shots. We played for a while until we stopped at the red light. I thought I should stop acting siao (we had a distance like 4-5m and over ten passengers between us), hence tried to avoid eye contact with the little boy and looked out of the window, all the way until I reached my stop and got out of the bus...

I believe one look can change a person's mood and feeling. Be it a loving look or fiercely stare, your simple gesture can affect others. From what I observed people nowadays take most things for granted. That's why we must start from these simple little gesture to make this world a better place to live in.

Don't lose ur smile to this already-cold world.


But don't smile looking down at another world living in your hp.


Good night world.

love,
Ee

First Night Shift @ 4th Nov '14

Here's the boring timeline which marks my first shift in my life. A night shift. When I say boring, it definitely is. Simply wanna jot down bits and bobs to mark my first ever working shift in my life.


5:44 AM 11/4/2014 

Listening to YES 933 (Chinese FM in Singapore, probably the only thing I like in Sg. Ops I forgot dollars should top the list). If you're wondering why am I still awake, I'm working night shift, my first ever rotating shift happened to be a night shift. Not that tiring as what I'd expected. Perhaps joining/organizing events during uni somehow helped me adapting to this job fast.Thanks to my hardcore uni events back then.

(Drinking 3-in-1 coffee)

Consider I am lucky, or not. I have to work rotating shift, nine-to-nine job (12 hours), be it day or night shift. Working 14 days per month is standard (excluding OTs). Since today is my first day, it's hard to say that I'm doing well and going to be fine. Lifestyle is upside-down, biological clock is messed up. God knows what would happen to me in coming months or years. What I know now is to work hard when I still can, when my health and body still allow me to.

Not quite sure what am I going to write since it's 6 in the morning. My brain isn't functioning well now.


6:00 AM 11/4/2014

(933 playing Singapore national anthem) I miss Malaysia more.


6:15 AM 11/4/2014

(Tuned off 933 as it's morning and DJ starts hosting. Listening to Ed Sheeran's and Love Rosie soundtracks)

Did I say Love, Rosie is so so good? I did, in Instagram.

***Recap***

Watched this movie hours ago; read this novel at least five years back, twice. A really good remake into film! Reminiscing the story between Rosie and Alex once more. British accent is so sexy! Soundtracks are another plus point. All in all, a good one, although I like the name #WhereRainbowsEnd (used in UK) more than #LoveRosie (in US).

"It's funny because when you're a child, you believe you can be anything you want to be, go wherever you want to go. There's no limit to what you can dream. You expect the unexpected, you believe in magic, in fairy tales, and in possibilities. 

Then you grow older and that innocence is shattered and somewhere along the way the reality of life gets in the way and you're hit by the realization that you can't be all you wanted to be, you just might have to settle for a little bit less. Or perhaps a variation of what you once wanted. 

Why do we stop believing in ourselves? Why do we let facts and figures and anything but dreams rule our lives?" 

(Lines written in novel, not showing in the movie) 

Am tempted to reread for the third time after watching the movie. So good.. So so good..


I like all soundtracks in this movie!


6:30 AM 11/4/2014
 
Most of the people in here are sleeping. I'm one of a few who are still awake. It's not easy to stay up whole night, guess I'm the weird one.

(Reading Yahoo News)


6:51 AM 11/4/2014

Remember I mentioned how dependent Singaporeans are on technology and whatnot. Here's the solid PROVE!!!

https://sg.news.yahoo.com/google-reveals-singapore-number-one-043027547.html

No surprise.

Went out and had a little walk out of the building just now. It's dawn. Sky is grey perhaps it's gonna rain?


You won't believe what I've found online!

http://marimarister.files.wordpress.com/2013/08/cecilia-ahern-love-rosie.pdf

Damnnnnn, Where Rainbows End/Love, Rosie online version! For those who really interested in the novel itself, this is it! Totally free. Okay I might really read it for the third time during my shift tomorrow.

(Listening Alone Again by Gilbert O'Sullivan [my favourite soundtrack], 70s' rhythm, sad lyric)


7:47 AM 11/4/2014

(Listening Small Bump by Ed Sheeran)

Got a morning text from my BFF asking how am I doing. Still alive. Strangely enough, I don't feel tired. Perhaps the caffeine kept me awake until now. Powerful 3-in-1 coffee.

Keeping myself hydrated perhaps is another way to ensure that I won't be dying at an early age.





7:57 AM 11/4/2014

Closing this 2-hrs timeline for today.

May you have a good Tuesday.


Morning people.
signing off.

love,
Ee

从见光明

封尘太久，我几乎忘了怎么把我的情绪想法化成文字抒发出来。过去几个月的阴霾，终见天日。

这几个月是人生的大转折。戴上方帽子毕业其实不过是漫漫人生中其中五年奋斗的成果。接下来迎接你的，占据你人生大部分的，必是那遥遥无期，看不见终点的工作生涯。充满正能量的我，变得不再那么无时无刻都开朗乐观。抱着“船到桥头自然直”的人生哲学，好好地活了二十二年的我，竟会在第二十三年因为诸多“现实考量”而郁郁寡欢了好一阵子。直到找到了份不错的工作，我这才又慢慢转换回来。But I would say I’m a changed person now. 身边朋友都觉得我给他们的感觉不一样了，也说是好事。承你们贵言，希望真的是长大了，而不是变质了。


毕业等于失业这句话真的没错。找份自己适合的喜欢的工作，真的很难。深深体会了“有一好没有二好”这句话背后深远的意思。必定要牺牲些什么，你才能得到些什么。这份工作，我多了自由，却没了正常的作息。多了时间，却少了能够一起共度时间的人。

开始这份工作到现在其实也不过近一个月，我连薪水都还没到手，就已经开始策划要买些什么东西，要换什么电话，明年要到哪里旅行等等等有的没的。这里的生活还不至于到省吃俭用，但也不是餐餐大鱼大肉就是。对我来说最大的，最需要克服的，就是钱财管理。我从来就是超没有金钱概念的人类，吃米不知米价，吃水果不知水果贵的外星人。除了以前读书PTPTN那笔钱外，我还没见过什么钱出现在我的银行户口，也不知道该怎么理财。是时候学习了。


一点我实在不能忍受，或是说我还不能适应的，是这里的人对科技产品的依赖。在telco公司工作完全可以看得出这里的人多么重视，多么依赖网络，3G， 4G， WIFI。举一例子：一个短短几分钟的网络短线，马上就有人投诉了。在马来西亚网络断线也不过家常，可能这里的步伐太快，人们不能容忍一点闪失。另一例子：走在路上，或搭巴士、搭地铁，绝对人手一机，没一例外。手里没按着电话的，就是看着iPad；看不见电话或iPad的，就是耳里塞着耳机。塞在挤满人的地铁车厢里，你绝对会对那份出奇寂静的氛围感到莫名其妙。人都不沟通了吗？眼神没半点交流，人与人间毫无人情味可言。走在路上的人们，各个刻着对生活感到厌倦的一号表情。不然就是，你最好离我远点老娘没心情对付你的二号表情。再不然就是眼神空洞，神情呆滞的三号表情。

好冷漠的城市。

为了继续燃烧对工作，对生活的热忱，我决定时不时还是要更新部落格。虽然现在有多余的时间我宁愿拿来睡觉，不过，谁知道哪天我脸上也刻着那一二三号表情。我。不。要。也不想。就像一开始我对自己说的，绝对不向世俗低头。We shall see how.


说些开心的。同事都很热心，我的阿头人也不错。工作方面，不管你大学毕业，还是修个文凭，出来社会还是个从零开始的菜鸟。对很多东西都很陌生，尤其是technical层面。说到底，没点专业知识也不好意思对人称自己是位engineer吧。视压力为动力，希望在两年内能有所进步。

我的屋主是个安娣。我七点起床她已经去做工了，八点回来她已经睡觉了。名副其实的早睡早起。没什么交流，不过她是个不错的屋主就是，没drama。一个人一间房的自由等于无限。是我所向往的。他们说我应该要找个室友，免得我回到家面对四面墙会emo。是难免会有情绪低落的时候，但是我从来不是个会分享这类情绪的人。再来，自己的房间要怎么摆设随我高兴，怎么整理打扫随我意。所以，我还蛮满意现在的小窝。



没尝试过靠自己的生活，你是不会怀念你曾拥有的，无忧无虑，什么都不需要管的童年。就是因为曾经不能重来，更要努力把现在活得很好，免得未来三五年不堪回首现在的种种经历。

你是我在最需要温暖安慰的时候的那剂强心针。

最后

真的。

仪

Midnight Diary (Again, after so long)

It's been long. I haven't got time to update my blog. No shit I have all the time in the world to be frank just that I had no clue how to put my thought into words like, any more. But things happened, time won't stop ticking.

This is a quick post (and late night, again). I certainly don't know what to blog (now) so I'll just randomly talk about what comes into my mind.

1. was sitting infront of my lappy this morning since I woke up. For hours. I had this thought with me: 不甘愿就这样。就这样. "Just-like-that". Anyway, I finally decided to start sending out resume. Well, sometimes we can't help but to follow the current. I don't see this as a bad sign though, (at least for now) because it's really time to step into next phase. Hire me hire me hire me!
2. I'm never a network-social active person (Besides Instagram, I update quite frequent I'd say haha). I seldom text, hence I rarely check my hp for messages. My friends have mostly gotten used to my taking-forever-to-reply-a-text style. Now, well, it's getting serious: I don't even pick up calls! They just happened to call me when I wasn't around my hp. You know, iphone drains battery in lightning speed! So 1/4 of the day it's on charged (no kidding).
3. was hanging out with my cousins. We are close, but aren't that close to the extend to hang out outside of our family gathering. Or is it just me? Anyway, it was a great hangout. Gossiping stuff away. We should do it again some time!
4. was chatting with my girls (rarely happened, see no. 2) and the conversation totally made my day. They aren't just BFF, they are BBF, MBF, (don't mind this, inside joke) etc. too! They are the buddies, the company, the kind, the love, the evil, the sin, they are everything.
5. have been looking for pianosheets and covers. Can't get the pianosheets of the songs I fond lately: 天使的指纹 and 像天堂的悬崖. It takes me forever to cover by ears (and the results are not even close as nice) so I'd rather wait for the pianosheets online. My elder sis sent me a piano prodigy youtube video, which depressed me (in some not-so-serious ways). I can never be half as nice as that 9-year-old kid my god. I've been learning since 6, that kid hadn't even been born yet! Lesson learnt: all children are gifts; not all children are gifted. I'm a missed.
6. I miss going roadtrip with loved ones. Probably much influenced by the book I read lately. I miss looking out the window as the scenery passed us by. I miss looking at the driver and the look in his eyes.
7. I recalled back the night where I hit into the glass. The fear of ruining everything. I guess I can never forget that feeling. Frighten. Scared. Guilt especially. Everything washed through me whenever I recall back that night. I'm feeling all the feelings even typing it out now. 
8. Had a little mood swing. Thank god for my optimism. The positive vibe. They gather me up as a whole, as a person. I feel vulnerable at times where I need a shoulder to lean on. But forgetting they need the same thing back from me. Haven't I always said things are two-way, mutual. I really should keep this in mind. When I stop giving out the positive aura, I can't ask for it either. Am back as little sunshine now!
9. Read Tim's latest blog post and got really inspired. Everyone should read. *Click Here*. I love reading his blog anyway. So down to earth. So earnest. So true. 

-Tumblr Time-

Adorable pic! Angel like baby as if he/she has wings attached. Hmm decorations do matter.

Did I mention? Guess not. I got an A- for my FYP. Was kinda disappointed at first. Well this pic kinda reassures me lol.

exactly. Perhaps I won't encounter the wrong ones. But life's a bitch. Just hope for the best.

simply love love LOVE this pic! Art is so much fun. Where fun exists, where art forms.

much beyond words. I envy this well-dressed little girl, and the puppy. Books wall is my thing!! and I wonder what's that little thing sits on the floor (right side).

-being really random-

The unforgettable Cameron Highland roadtrip with family. Still, I don't regret of going, of staying.

after the accident. Sorry to make my parents worried, and still had to hold up and stayed strong for me throughout the entire time. I know deep inside they were broken. Love you baba mama! PS: couple shirts my dad and I put on!

they are just like a pair of mischievous couple. I like this picture of them.

I don't know where am I going. But I'm going. Are you coming?

Roadtrip roadtrip roadtrip...

the green. the soil. the sand. the sea. the sky.

well.

night.

it's Tuesday.

it's reunion day.

love,

Ee

Pre-grad. Post-grad.

Maybe every living creature in this whole wide world is studying for finals and ironically, I have absolutely nothing to do, I guess blogging will kill the time. So here's some things crawl into my mind. 

I'm going to graduate, for your information. And realizing that you are about to graduate is a mixed feeling. Something like love-hate relationship. It's such a relief knowing that I've completed my 4 years engineering degree (+ another 1 year foundation makes 5 years in total), not finished first-class-ly but at least reached my expectation.  The tension feeling I got whenever I thought of the after-grad is however, killing. 

I'm not a person with plans. With that I thank god, for saving me from a lot of worries. This time, I have no such luck to step away from it: drawing a future for myself. I'm confused about it, my future, which previously I didn't really give a fuck. I thought eventually, things will come naturally if they're meant to be, will fall into its place and fit in perfectly. With that naive thought or you say belief, I actually did survive through my 5 years of college (Amazing! isn't it?) . 

I was 18 when I first came to Malacca and I'm 23 this year and soon going to leave. Within these 5 years I've come to know that, the best things in life aren't things. I came with my clothes, some daily necessities and stationeries, I now go back with so much more. Friends and experiences are two most important things I can name it now. I've been through so much makes me feel that, I actually did quite some things in my college life and I wasn't wasting it. Of course there's times I would have worked harder and put more efforts, but there's moments I felt it didn't matter at all. Complicated. Anyways, these 5 years made up a great experience and probably part of the greatest memories in my life. 

I know things will look so much different in a month or two from now. I can't foresee that. I can't predict what would happen. I can't say I don't look forward to its coming. But I can't say I anticipate to its coming either. I'm confused about what I really want, because I never thought of it. I really should think of it now. The thought of becoming one of those ambitious people scares me. I don't know who would I become. I hope that deep inside I would forever be this me, the SzeEe you know. But god knows what society capable of to change a person. The idea of it horrifies me. 

I have to keep reminding myself not to be one of those who would fade out into the society and lose himself. Thus, I gotta hold myself up to this belief, so tightly until it hurts: I'm not gonna change to blend in, to fit in. I'm gonna be just me.

another wordy post. 

I guess I overthink. Fuck it. Who cares. Just live. 

Counting down 4 days. Be it alone or with friends or with you. I'm so gonna enjoy it. 

I will miss this place for sure.

and you.

love,

Ee

静悄悄静悄悄

刚从电台听到的歌。
Been on repeat ever since.


%------------------------%


喜欢自己才会拥抱生活。

“世间有很多美妙的东西，
但真正属于自己的却并未几。
在这个缤纷的世俗世界里，
能够学会用一颗平凡的心去看待四周的一切，
也是一种境界。”


擦肩而过的人们，
谁知道你是谁。

他们都有自己的故事，
而旁观者永远只能虚想猜测。

喜欢做个旁观者。
喜欢看着世界流动。
喜欢坐在落地窗前欣赏外头的人潮攒动。


一对貌似忘年恋的情侣，
姐姐似的女生搂着弟弟似的男生，
交头接耳低声嘀咕。

四五只人小鬼大的小学生，
放学后惬意的溜达，
坐在街边栏杆上打闹欢笑。

一对印度情侣，
勾着小指头逛大街。

一位戴着很in的帽子的阿嫲。

带着打包食物回来的员工。

翘着脚摇啊摇，
对着电脑的只身小金毛。

三位妙龄少女，
做着功课大声聊着天。

办公人士对着iPad刷啊刷。

背着大书包大水瓶，
在街上奔跑的少年。

从窗外往里头看的光头老外，
不小心地跟我对上眼。*羞*

一对老外夫妇带着两个小孩。
小的被妈妈牵着，
大的跟在后头，
带着一脸“我很累可以休息了吗” 或
“热带国家my ass”之类的厌恶表情。


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没有任何东西可以永恒。
如果是流动的，它会溜走；
如果能存着的，也会干涸；
如果还成长的，总会凋零。


能留下来的，是爱。

是人对周遭赋予的生命。

是人与人之间的互相关怀。

哦。
还有文字。



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Midnight Diary 2014 1.0

I hadn't clicked into my blog for like, weeks, until I received an email from a reader. Alright then I'll do a quick post before I sleep. Spontaneous like that, yes.

As most of you know, I'm doing my FYP this sem, and only FYP. At first I thought it'd be so damn free to me to only take one subject in a short semester. Reality just slapped me in the face. Bitch please, I'm BUSY. Even busier than usual. Meeting up with my supervisor for like, everyday? for the past few weeks and each meeting lasted at least 2 hours. Until last week he pronounced I'm 'okay' on my own. Thank goodness. 

He's really a nice supervisor, provides every guidance and help needed. He's that keen and helpful to a point where, he called me at 10pm (yes, at night) and asked me to add 'some more' stuffs into my report; once sent me an email at 11 close 12 midnight, asked me to read an article. One thing I'm so much behind the progress (and it's my usual habit) is that, he never really satisfied for my current doing. He needs more, detailed stuffs. And each time we met, there'r sure some new things we explored. He even asked if I'm interested to further my current project in NTU. Well, with an offer like that, anyone would waver a little. Shall see how it goes. And I was told that, someone is gonna show up for my presentation. Gosh, how stressful!

Throughout my university life, I never really loved any subject or showed interest in any field (academically). But in doing this FYP, I found that I'm kinda interested to the work I'm doing. Or perhaps meeting a right supervisor makes things right. I owe him so much. Thanks sir. :)

Stressful and yet, I'm happy with it.

Sometimes, I wish I can just read good novels, watch great movies, listen to my favourite songs, travel, see beautiful things, eat whenever I'm hungry, sleep whenever I'm tired. But no, I first have to complete my FYP report, second to finish my presentation successfully, and then graduate, find a job and struggle.

My whereabout just now. When you bump into me, anytime anywhere before 28th, ask me to back to my stuff and stop slacking and strolling around. I can't afford that. oh and wish me good luck too! Tqvm:)

Out of the blue, I miss this place. The seat that overlooking the street, the latte, the green mug. My recent favourite hanging place.

Another 2 weeks and byebye to this place. I'm not sure if I'd miss it, but for sure I'll miss my university life. Gosh can't believe I'm one leg stepping out into the society, another stage of my life. I'm taken aback, yet kinda looking forward to it. Perhaps my good luck will continue following me. and to all of you my friends who soon graduate.

Life like this is a little bit unexpected. Who knows the one sitting at the last row in your class will end up be the one who cooks you dinner, brings you to grocery shopping, or likely to be the punching bag of your own. I never knew I could be this irrational, unreasonable girl which I back then swore I would not be. Thanks for seeing me through that I'm not always the strong one; Thanks for letting me know I can be spoilt; Thanks for telling me it's okay to be a little annoying and unreasonable at times. Above all, thanks for reminding me that I'm still a girl. I don't see the future until it comes to me. I know it's gonna be hard. I know many things await. Perhaps together we can walk it through. 

Most of my friends know, I'm so reserved when it comes to my personal stuffs. Family, best friends, whoever. I used to bottled up my feelings. Even I blog, I just put my random thoughts into words. I seldom open up to anyone like I do to you. Sometimes, we're scared to say things we wanted to say, so we keep our mouths shut. Until that one day we realize, we should have said it. But it's too late.

and 

Nothing is too late.

(ahhhhh this is deep I don't know what I'm talking about [but deep down my instinct told me so {well maybe it agrees something to a certain degree}])

nested brackets. lol.

don't ask. I simply like this picture.

It's crazy how fast things change.

Thinking back, it's really good to be a kid. But better to be an adult. Although yes, we have to worry about a living, but we make decisions to everything which would lead us to the destinations. We either enjoy the gain, or suffer the lost. That's the deal of life.

Growing up and be a happy human being.

That's my life.

xoxo

Ee