Thursday, December 31, 2020

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲

二〇二〇进入尾声
这年纪这疫情你就别想出门倒数趴趴走(放眼望去四下也没朋友!
我觉得可以乘着空挡意思意思秀一秀文笔

大家都在回顾过去完成了什么大事经历了什么磨难
今年过的与往年大不相同
疫情关系导致封国封城
平时我们所谓的“习以为常”皆烟消云散
所有的“理所当然”也一并远去

封国MCO期间
想说疫情关系我选择Work From Home在家工作
就应该好好利用闲暇时间做些有意义之事……(这就是错误的开端
天真的以为WFH能有所谓“闲暇时间” —— 错中之错

人人皆练就十八般武艺中至少一两大招
——在线健身
——大秀厨艺
——在线直播网卖
——开启被动收入赚钱模式 
等等等

在这个被世俗眼光绑架的社会
你没择其一你就OUT了!!!

确实
在MCO初期果真如此
为了促进社会的进步和发展
不想被淘汰就必须与时俱进(激动握拳
小女也开始随波逐流跟随大众的步伐(请看回部落格上上篇章

从那时候起的整整八个月
根本是荣登我短短工作六年生涯之
最忙碌
最艰辛
它说第二没人敢说第一之冠

但开什么玩笑
冒险家如我当然是抱着
白浪滔滔我不怕 的 精神
撑起舵儿往前划 的 决心
打算跟它大干一番(到底它是谁?

好了说故事时间终于来了(没错就是现在才来
这故事经典在于
我觉得它值得在我人生篇章里占有一席之地
就是那种老人家口中的过了这个劫就平平安安了的坎
就是所谓一本书里的比较精彩注目的一高潮迭起环节

八月中旬
准确来说八月十五二〇二〇

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲第一篇章
一如往常晚上九点或瑜伽或皮拉提斯或HIIT后
我感觉少了运动完后的大汗淋淋心情舒畅
取而代之是右下腹被一百只大象duai duai duai踩过去的痛
是噗雷噗雷的痛(新之助粉丝hi

没别的 我心想
应该就是盲肠炎了
有了我老姐盲肠炎痛了三个礼拜的世界记录
我其实没在担心
根本老神在在想说好吧
这点痛 在漫漫苦苦的人生中算得了什么
忍痛到隔天才入院手术吧

撇开一整晚翻来覆去无法入眠
痛到醒来吐得稀里哗啦
我期待的黎明终于到来了
YAY
手术后我就是条好汉了对吧(咦?

冗长的入院手续我就不说了
反正就不是我想象中的盲肠炎
但也算是满普遍的女人病/Ovarian torsion
意思就是
在我奋不顾身运动后导致卵巢/ovary + 输卵管/fallopian tube扭转
但病因是右卵巢有一个历史悠久的9x4cm的囊肿/cyst

由于疫情紧张时期
从入院后到被推入手术房全程无人陪伴
我一小女子独挑大梁进行挑战

护士小姐姐们推我进手术房的路程
真的就象连续剧的慢镜头般
看着天花板上的灯一盏一盏的过
推进医用病床电梯后那封闭式的尴尬氛围
麻醉药师跟我确认身份及大约讲解手术流程的紧张时刻
让我打消满满快溢出来的紧张感的风趣谈话
还依稀记得他那顶可爱的米奇老鼠手术帽
从病床被抬到冰冰凉凉的手术台
手术台上亮的无法睁眼的聚光灯
最后的最后
倒数十秒的麻醉输入……

一切的一切彷佛还历历在目

麻醉药清醒后的那一睁眼
看见的是病床前方的挂钟
忘了几点 但是是个凌晨
我伸手找寻在手术前放到床头柜的手机
跟家人男友报了平安后
闭上眼又进入深深睡眠

隔天睡醒才发现
身体左侧系着一血袋 右侧系着一尿袋
医生探访时说
“always bring your two friends with you……”
我的医生真他妈的幽默(请原谅我的语助词

ANYWAY
当然可想而知
我完全胜任挑战
手术顺利成功
不怕不怕好汉还是有生育能力哈哈哈

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲第二篇章
接下来在我老爸老妈来探望我的中午
没错中午
原因院方防疫措施关系
一天只有两次两个小时的探病时间
一次只能有两位探病者
彷佛时隔一世纪之久终于见到亲人
我当然兴高采烈
当儿
我表演右侧下床以示我复原能力良好
这时你想起些什么了吗?
对了
就是那两位医生介绍我的新朋友啊
我真的就忘记了其中左边那位血袋朋友
啊结果一扯
就左侧血崩了
可能因为止痛药关系我感受不到伤口疼痛
但是溢出的血是多到让我觉得整个屁股湿湿的
护士小姐姐们用小跑步进出我的病房
邀请我老爸老妈回避
小姐姐A与B替我止血更替纱布
小姐姐C在旁辅助
小姐姐D打电话给医生求指示到底输血管应该重新植入与否

ANYWAY
当然可想而知
我再次挑战成功
只是苦了我年事已高的两老让他们受惊不少
你以为episode结束了吗

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲第三篇章
可能手术是laparoscopic(方法是向腹腔内充入的二氧化碳 通常手术几天后会自行缓解
我整个肚子涨的跟一颗球没两样
同一天晚上
我一度呼吸困难到必须按铃求救
真的就像做戏一般
护士小姐姐们再次用小跑步进出我的病房
拿有的没的往我身上贴一堆
告诉我不要紧张 深呼吸
好像肚子那颗球里面是个宝宝准备生产那般

ANYWAY
当然可想而知
我三度挑战成功

终于
八月十八二〇二〇
风和日丽 凉风习习
正是个好汉出院的好日子
心想得了
乘着三十天的病假
把工作职责有的没的该死的责任心先搁一旁不谈
让我好好复习MCO必学之十八般武艺吧(仰天长啸

回到家后
事与愿违的行动非常之不便外
腹部胀感也迟迟没有褪去
好死不死
每一个夜晚都发高烧无法入睡
但隔天便奇迹般退烧
除了没胃口吃任何食物外人也格外没精神
几乎整天昏昏欲睡
老妈男友见我状况没好转
苦口婆心劝说下
八月二十二二〇二〇
我再次回到医院找我的主治医生诊断……

看着我的验血报告
语重心长的我的医生说到
“I think it's better to get you admitted, have you taken your lunch?”
那时是接近午餐时间
我听了心想
“又?!”

简直像在看缩时摄影
发生的一切如同快转
星期六的傍晚
我又独自回到熟悉的等候室
必须再次体验最痛恨最害怕的CT scan

恶梦植入二〇二〇人生小插曲最终章
答案晚上揭晓
医生给了我没有最难只有更难之选择题
选择一 
隔天马上再在第一次laparoscopic手术的伤口动刀
但是
有几率是血块太大必须要C-sec(更大面积的伤口
选择二
等radiologist星期一上班 
看看能不能用radiology清除血块且不必再开刀(least invasive
但是
有几率是血块太大而无法用此方法清除以致回去选择一

如此选择题你会怎么答
重点是这道题没人知道准确答案哟

反正横竖都是一死
我条好汉就放手一搏决定隔天星期天立马再开刀
好好一个人干嘛活得那么苟且活得多心焦虑(握拳

其实我当然没那么潇洒
那一个夜黑风高的夜晚独自一人不说
光想想要再次经历开刀过程及之后的种种不适
我人生至此还真没如此煎熬过
说什么坚强的好汉都是熬过来的
我根本全靠死撑

这一次被推进手术室前
除了有我老妈老妹的目送之外
也多了一道输血程序
前后总共输了三袋A型血
和把喂的肥肥胖胖的猪拿去宰割同样原理无误

一切如同déjà vu般
经历准确一星期前所经历的

此时眼看这位戴着唐老鸭手术帽的麻醉师说到
“Hey it's you again”
我差点老泪纵横
你那该死的亲切感是与生俱来的吗
“You made a good decision”(拍拍我的肩膀
我当下真的眼眶泛泪

当我知道血红素正常值是12g/dl
而我的是6的时候
真的该庆幸爱我的人逼我做了对的选择回去医院
天知道继续躺在家做所谓的休息
实在奄奄一息
会不会流血过多而发生些什么鸟事

麻醉师又开始倒数了

十……
九……
八……
七……


后记
懂我的人皆知
其实我很害怕被亲朋戚友姨妈姑姐来势汹汹的关心给淹没
所以从事发到康复阶段近两月我都不发一语
已经够负能量了的社交平台也不差我这一出
一些朋友从些小地方看出端倪进而问候
你们的关心我都心知
也很感谢你们对我的了解以及不打扰
感恩

回头你看看你看看
我这不是说了吗
且幽默风趣如我
不是再度把故事阐述的栩栩如生
你们也看得开心点(呃 有吗

那段时间其实很煎熬
第二次手术后医生有给我系上吗啡为止痛
但是勇士如我
当然可想而知
我N度挑战成功没有使用一丁丁

康复时期特别长
我的后遗症也多到我一度怀疑人生
二次手术后我一度伤口发炎一度疑似骨痛热症几度胃酸倒流
笑问苍天我人生这是何苦
一开始认为迷宫般的医院
曾几何时变成我的常顾之地
连医生都觉得我这个病人并非等闲之辈
累了我家两老及老妹不止
还需每天提心吊胆不是进出医院就是在旁服侍
也让在对岸的大姐及男友担心
看着他们心疼的目光
因为无助默默无语
隔着屏幕一起落泪
这些不算是真爱算什么(喂~

健康真的很重要
定期做身体检查很重要
为自己买份量身打造的保险很重要

说到这里有没有像是广告植入
其实我的被动式收入是卖保险(喂喂不是啦~

Prudential保险经纪是我的中学同学
很感谢他为了客户的事那么上心也尽心尽力
谁要联络方式可以找我拿
真心推荐

医院的医生护士都很有爱心
因为我的情况特殊医生也主动给了我她的个人号码
好死不死好几次都用上了
还有要不是那个麻醉师
我真的会更加难熬个一千两百万倍
说到这
那顶该死的卡通手术帽又再次浮现在我脑海挥之不去……

然后谢谢你
愿意把文看到这里
也谢谢你能够忍受我的胡言乱语

希望二〇二一大家都健健康康快快乐乐
希望我们的大地母亲可以快快痊愈
然后大家能收拾行李
去见见想念的人
去看看偌大的世界


-仪-

先放上几天前跟FaFa合照的我让你们垫垫胃

因为以下图片或许会令你感到不适 
别说我没警告你

初来乍到 老妹送我进来后就被邀请了出去

这就是做CT scan前的等候室

第一次手术后的隔天中午

第一次手术的影像 不知哪边是哪边 反正就不是什么美丽的景观

第二次手术 由于失血过多 抽不出血
我的左手白白被扎了六次后 护士小姐姐这才说 那我们换手好不好
你不等明年才说(翻桌 

这就是我之前提起的
准备被拿去宰割前的输血

跟老妈的深情对望 忘了当下说了些什么
反正我是知道哭红了双眼无数次

第二次入院观察时间比较长一丁丁 没记错我呆了六天
这应该是出院前的晚上

第二次手术清除血块的影像
 看着还真像宰猪会看到的血淋淋的情景

如果说我是27号中午出院 27号晚上又重新回到这个鬼地方
看着老爸老妈苍老的背影 内心是无法言喻的愧疚

好啦就这样告一段落
最后最后 谢谢啦大家
心领了

恶梦就该死的滚边凉快去好吗

二〇二〇真的完结了

二〇二一我们看着办



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现在是十二月三十一二〇二〇 2246hrs
我刚才灵光一闪
如果你有耐心爱心同情心读到这里
以另一个层面来说 
我几乎算是陪伴你度过倒数跨年耶


那就祝福你(还是您?!
新年快乐

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The Stunning Komodo National Park in 2019

If there's ever been a time for reflection, it is now. This festive season is oddly lonely for good reason. Everything is not the same anymore to us all. We wake up each day knowing that normality is suspended. And sure enough it won't resume in the near future. December marks the 9th close to 10th month Le Bf and I have not seen each other - longest record as yet. 

It's been one year since we travelled abroad. We have been working in SG for the past 6 years and each year we make it a ritual to go for at least a year-end trip to wrap up the year. Except 2020.

Last year, Le Bf was at a phase of loving sunshine and outdoor activities and remote islands after his trip to Semporna Island in May. Since then, he had been constantly looking and exploring islands around the globe. The more remote it is located the better. Like a pirate looking for next easy target - outside of public radar. 

So last year December, Le Bf and I did not plan for a faraway destination, instead we he chose a "kinda" isolated island nearby - Komodo Island. It became Insta/FB-famous after some "celebrities" shared those Instaworthy-pics online. I'm glad that he found out sooner so we could still enjoy the tranquil vibe. You know how some places become a big hoo-ha and can be overrated. I assure you this place is nothing short of paradise. Oh well given that you really enjoy the nature and simply comfortable with just being yourself and your companion. Chillax and nothing else. Simplicity is key. 

I was captivated by the amazing nature scenes the national park offers. There were A LOT of firsts. 

We stayed on a boat (not the luxurious type, to say the least) and living at the ocean for 3 nights
Our boat was well maintained and it really depends on your luck which "Explorer" boat you take. Ours was a beautiful double-decker and we slept on top with the view only you can imagine throughout the 4 days 3 nights. Credit to the travel mate we thankfully met on the boat for the drone shot.

Boat gently rocking us to sleep in the middle of nowhere (solar panel is used and so no generator making noises), nothing in sight, complete darkness and beyond. Waken up by the first ray of sun and sound of calming sea water.

I wasn't lying when I said we just chilled and did nothing. Except for the time we were down for a dip or out exploring the places.

Or getting some tanning. That's how I got such ugly tan hahahaha I just laid there not giving a damn what I wore

The "adventurers" on boat

Looking for a few endangered Komodo dragon before our very eyes
They are the largest living lizard in the world. Not fancy I know.

Appreciating the light at sunset with zero blocking

Watching tens of thousands of bats flying across the sky

 Experiencing outdoor cinema. 
One night we watched Moana (a Disney character who was chosen to journey across the sea to save the world) on boat elevated the experience and made it even cooler

The ever stunning scenery
It took us I-forgot-how-long to climb to the top with such amazing view.

Imagine this was the very first spot we visited and you just couldn't help looking forward what brings you next. 

Pink Beach!!! The pink is surreal. Thanks to the drone shot to make it justice (I hope)

I'd say all the photos are at their truest forms without editing. Oh well maybe minimal like crop/adjust brightness

Taka Makassar is the name
That beautiful

This was the place we first found baby sharks. What a great time to just chill in the sea 

Sailing with dolphins, swimming with a giant manta, sea turtles and baby sharks and exploring the beautiful coral reef. Too bad we don't have a GoPro or something to capture those moments. But they are all imprinted in our minds...

Simply showing off my tan. and maybe the butt cheeks too lol.

I got easily 3 or 4 shades darker

A simple hearty meal after some "workouts" was really satisfying.
It could be too simple. But the view isn't.

Meet my friends! 

Our last day on boat. It was such a bitter-sweet feeling.
Leaving one unique stay for another equally special experience.

This is it! The hut!
Hello. This was our room for 2 nights. Originally it was only 1 night but we found it too lovely and would be such a waste to leave the next day.

Look at how cute it is!

I think it only took us about 2 hours to fully explore this small private island

Meals are decent. Definitely more "Instaworthy" compared to our boat meals. But no complaints!

Cocktails a must. Look at the scorching sun.

This is the entire group to have the island all by ourselves. Spot me! We had our Vietnamese dinner that night with all other travelers coming from different parts of the world. Before Covid hit us. This sounds like a distant tales.

the campfire that night.

Weather is usually very nice. Nice as in, very sunny. A little too much sun in fact but again no complaints. The clouds cleared after I took this photo. The islander told us this place has never rained. So they said.

Everything on the island is perfect I'd say. From the friendly staff, the funny guests, down to smallest details like the equipment rental. They have got you covered!

I actually wanted to stop here but hey, our stay on the mainland Labuan Bajo was very nice too! So why not show off a bit of that piece of land? 

It's quite popular among the many travelers to Labuan Bajo/Komodo Island

Seaesta is the name.

I'd say nicest restaurant in the small town -La Cucina. 
Why three you asked? 

We met Jessica on the mainland. We knew nothing about Dutch directness until we met her. And those drone shot photos credited to her! 

Now really time to wrap things up. All in all, the photos don't really sum up our trip. Like the undersea, the snorkeling, the kayaking. 

Le Bf and I were completely immersed in nature throughout the journey and utterly enjoyed it. The whole entire trip was magical and if I must add, nourishing. We’ve been to quite some places over the years. But none of them quite like this one. We will definitely come back, Labuan Bajo.


Love,
Ee