Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Bye 2014

2015 is approaching. I still remember the last minute I was struggling whether or not to post a review of my year 2013, and the next minute, it's the end of year 2014! God, where has all the time gone?

I haven't even blogged about my Christmas last year and bomb! Year 2015 is coming. I used to look forward to the coming of December, was so so into Christmas during the past, it was my favourite festive season out of all (and my baby sister's birthday). Spreading love and joy and happiness and all. This year's Christmas was just another normal day to me.

Christmas 2013. I had time to sketch and doodle and draw.

When I first entered my company I currently work in, many times I almost said I'm 22. I had always thought that 'I'm 22'. I still remember how proud I was when I just entered 18 years old. Young and bold and crazy. College and hangouts and boys(?)

Gone were the days.

Turning into 24 real soon. Am still young though. Maybe not that carefree like I used to. Maybe I don't really mean what I say all the time. Maybe I would try to fit in to this society I once despised. Point is, I don't know what exactly would happen to me, and I don't know what decision I would make at that point of time. If you heard, change is the only constant in life. I forgot where I learnt this sentence, but I admire whoever had said this.

We always wish things to stay the same, to remain the status you feel comfortable with, but we often forget, everything is impermanent. People grow old with times, kids become teenagers then turn into adults. Friends become lovers, lovers become husband and wife and then parents, grandparents. Even technology, iPhone 3G, 4, 5, 6, who knows? As long as we can't freeze the time, things change.

It's like, I used to have my small car in JB, I could come and go freely. I could drive to town 15km away from home and have a cup of latte. I still can, when I back to my hometown. In Singapore, I need to take public transport wherever I go. I have to take a 30 minutes bus ride to my work place which is like 3km away from my place. This is change.

There is a whole bunch of new things I have to do in year 2015, a whole bunch of new situations I have to handle and a whole bunch of hardships I have to overcome. I actually kinda looking forward to the new year. I start earning, saving; planning, spending. Although I over-spend sometimes, I buy things I don't really need, I don't know where has my money gone, but overall a pretty good feeling about spending my own money. And it all wouldn't happen if I didn't go through everything I had done. I feel unreasonably proud of myself. Now I truly feel like an adult.

There's good and bad in everything.

I feel the responsibility fell upon me. I have a say, I have to bear whatever consequences. I once said blogging was like part of my life, but now I don't really feel free doing so. This blog was my territory. I feel it's now intruded for no apparent reason. Or I feel exposed under others' judgements. I was so care free I didn't give a damn about what others think of me. I do now. 时间搞得鬼? I'm wondering if this is part of the deals of growing up.

I've been saying this tons of times I don't get bored of saying this one more time, I will at least stay true to myself, to this blog I've been using since young.

This year is probably, overwhelming to me. Completing my degree, falling down too hard, getting stitches for the first time, getting a job, starting my career life in Singapore, etc.. Overall a fruitful year. Only if I could kick the 'fall down' incident out of the list. 可惜没如果.

Feeling kinda wasted if I don't post this out since this is Christmas season. It's been delayed for a year...

Christmas 2013 handmade card to my friends. Back then I had time to really drew, cut, pasted, tied, wrote all things. This year I couldn't do it. This is change.
Which one was yours?
DIY. My so-called 百宝盒
Not printed stuff. I should have sold it for pocket money. Could I?

Again, gone were the days.... Sadly, I should have spent time on doing something for my friends on this Christmas. I didn't feel the joyful spirit this year.


I feel that if you are to make a list of new year's resolutions and cannot fulfill at the end, try making a list you wish you can continue doing in year 2015.

Maybe I was the one who couldn't attend to my resolutions, here are something I hope I can at least keep up for.

1. Read
I didn't count how many books I read in this year, but mostly good reads. This, The Rose Petal Beach is exceptional, unlike other Dorothy Koomson's books I found very loving warming, this is a romantic thriller.

2. Draw/doodle/sketch
This Christmas bear was for Michelle. If not mistaken.
3. Practice piano more often and cover songs if possible
Aim to cover this. JJ Lin's latest song,
Warning: super addictive, recent favourite.

4. Cafe hop
ambitiously hope that I can differentiate a latte and a flat white.

Passions above work!

Haha nahh just saying. I need money or else I wouldn't be in Singapore earning dollars.

There are many quotes I'd love to share with you, my favourite book ever (again) Tuesday with Morrie, happened to match what I'm blogging today. Some I might share with you before, but anyway...

"As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed as ignorant as you were at twenty-two, you'd always be twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it." 

"The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. Most of us live somewhere in the middle. A wrestling match. Which side wins? Love wins. Love always wins."

"I like myself better when I'm with you."

 ― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie 

Who would you hurt in the name of love? 
No one. Never.

There won't be too much love exists in the world. Especially when so many disasters, unfortunate things happened in this year.

In year 2015, continue to love.

I wish you a happy new year.