SzeEe ♥Ee-ternity♥: Morning Diary III

Friday, July 20, 2012

Morning Diary III | SzeEe's

Meh, a super wordy post. Get the warning right? Yea you can proceed XD

So, I am quite a strange/weird/mysterious person to you, most of you. I often make eye-contact and smile, but I never really talk. My friend told me that people find me unapproachable.

I realized that. I'm quite an observant ~~lol~~.

Nah I don't know. I smile to those whom I know/recognize/familiar faces. But how geh many of you still find it's hard to be friends with me. I even heard that I'm ~~lansi.~~ Serious shit I literally went stunned when my friend told me this ermm what, FACT?

It's true that I won't open up myself to people whom I don't familiar with. BUT I'm not, and will never be those unfriendly (or you called ~~lansi~~) people okay. I always thought that I'm a friendly person leh, correct me la if I'm wrong because there's a possibility that I'm feeling all good about myself. #fml.

I'm a total different person when I'm with my BFF, I practically go crazy most of the time.

I remember once I talked so loudly they sent me a glare and I went shut almost instantly, and the next second all of us laughed like nobody business. aghh I miss those moments.

So, this is basically me. Course there are many unforeseen ones I'm yet to explore. Here you go:

I'm a happy-go-lucky kind. Emo will never be my option.

I like to be alone, a lot. I often stay in my room even my housemates don't know I'm in the house. I have moments where I want to drive alone, shopping alone, going to a cafe alone.

Coincidentally bump into you in the street: if you are my friend? I'll smile at you and say 'hello'; You are a random stranger but we make eye-contact? I'll smile at you, too.

I don't like SMS, I find it really awkward. Even with my BFF! But if I do, I take a century to reply. Make no difference you see. I can only chat freely when I face-to-face with you.

I don't hate people and try not to dislike anyone. But if I do, that should be your problem. I hated one person in my life, but now I shall quote from Mitch Albom,

“holding anger is like a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.”

Cool? So I don't hate anymore.

I basically don't have any listener. I am the listener myself. I don't know how to open up my feelings to anyone. Somehow I can digest everything on my own. Or the alternate way, through words, like this.

I mean what I say. Doubt me? I don't explain. I don't care.

I have quite a tolerant of anger. But if I do get angry, you don't try me. I won't say that I have a good temper, if anything is beyond my limit, I'm crazy.

I love reading books. Rainy day and coffee are the best companions. Reading makes me picture a lot of things that would never happen in my life. For example, Harry Potter universe. Oh and I feel pity when I finish reading a really good book.

I'm the most lazy person on earth. I won't do anything until the last minute. Also, I have the worst time management skill. If I'm stuck between academic and event, I'm dead.

I feel love a lot. You can easily find that I love almost everything everyone. And 'love' is quite a powerful word to me and I like to use it a lot.

My family is my SUPER priority.

You find me complicated? That's what we called nature. I believe everyone has their uniqueness and I was born to be like this. It's like...