Dying

From China Press this time. Even in animal kingdom, they show the qualities of kindness and love. However men must need to do something to stain their humanity. What an irony! *seems i aint a human?LOL*

A kopitiam located right in front of the pineapple factory*八哩半*

Heavy breakfast-- fried turnip cake! *slurp*

I hadn't seen this kind of teacup for a long time^^

Little updates:

• I've been dying to get out of this house
• I've been dying to breathe the fresh air
• I've been dying to see my friends
• I've been dying to do something, whatever it is
• I've been dying to shower with sunshine
• I've been dying to start my study

And yes I'm dying to be thin. But ludicrously, without paying any effort *is eating only biscuit as breakfast and lunch considered one?* I want to slim down. okay here's another ironyXD

A big hug is needed.

0047

There's nothing for me to worry about

Dandelion

GD photo|Ee edited

Have you ever wondered what is 'jinny joes' which I had mentioned in the previous post?


Jinny Joes = dandelion = emblem of hope


A special term comes from Cecelia Ahern's 3rd novel 'If You Could See Me Now'


What if this fairy tale-like dandelion really exist??

Be Ready

• No more ABRSM exam in my life
• No more piano in coming days
• No more piano class on tuesday morning

The pressure and stress are still remained. Maybe there shall not be an ending yet, until end of May, until the result held.

And I went to this shop with my mum. This bakery has been operating ever since the British left the country. Over half century!! So chio! I got the information from SinChew daily la. Hahaha. You could also imagine from it's historical exterior right?

13, Jalan Tan Hiok Nee, 80000, Johor.
*Around Hwa Mui@JB town centre 1华美茶餐室*

The most popular product, banana cake! I love it so much!

An article comes from SinChew again. I'm moved. A theory I think everyone should know and understand.

Darn I feel like its the same for me having driving license compare to I don't have.






Flawless and pure relationship is needed



updated:: somebody out there please stop missing me!! I keep sneeze since morning until now!! ><

Fact

Pisces- 'It might not be easy for you to open up your feelings, but it'll be healthy'

Allright, it's not easy but somehow it's a way to ease my bad feeling. Treat it as a joke, for me as tragedy or what? misfortune? life lesson? I've no sense about why I being so numb. or like an optimistic girl told me, 'maybe one of ur nerve connects wrongly'. Well shouldn't deny sometimes I am quite blur. Everyone around me know this fact very well.


Talking with my friend about stress topic. Everyone hates it. Nobody wants to deal with it. I'm the one. In fact, I know I must confront and overcome it ultimately no matter how u don't wish to. No place exists where u won't get stressed. Somebody said stress is a kind of motivation, yes matter-of-factly. I truly believe it. But what about the unpleasant side effects it brought? nervousness? distraction? depression? well I could barely think on these.


Someone told me long ago, hate is a feeling, too, a torment to yourself. I don't know either it works on the situation of hating another feeling? Sounds weird. Forget about it.


I am talking to myself the whole entry. To be frank, I'm under stress, so lets words ease this emotional distress.



Friendship is love with understanding.


5 days to go...

A Thousand Miles

My recent favourite- searching some piano cover songs. No matter googling or using youtube. I wonder why don't some talents do a video to mp3 converter or such inventions? Though it's not the latest one but I just love this song so so much!! Especially the piano cover one!



I suppose my neighbours along down the street are getting mad at me *noise-that-piano-created pollution* or at themselves of choosing this area and having a neighbour *absolutely me!* who makes lots of noise during the whole noon.

Pls accept my apology for any inconvenience I've caused. So sorry! This situation will be stopped once I finish my exam. That means after 22nd of April. We all are going to have peace and calm atmosphere!


You don't have the right to accuse me never mind feeling disappointed to me. When the hell were u talking to me with this bloody sentence? So pls! don't pick up anything that makes me fume!

Countdown

Given the fact that 10 days left to me going to face the real threatening and frightening exam that I've never been in my life so far! Even though I'm very focused and well prepared. Gosh I bet I'd tremble with nervousness and tension and scare and fright and whatsoever negative feelings u could think!

'research indicates putting problems in words eases emotional distress.'

I just hope it works on my situation!


"There's this idea that putting bad feelings into words can help wash worries away," said someone pro


Well, lets we see does it works.



Make sure u savour each day.

update:: I've set a goal in my mind and never break it and must fulfil it and I'm delighted with the thoughts of being the one I want to be.

DaoDaoDog

I found something that really caught my sight

His name's DaoDao

I loved the dog and the sentences attached

It's so meaningful and the most important thing, it's CUTE and ADORABLE!




Our invisible match was so impressive u know

I just couldn't help but laughing in front of my screen for so long time

Both of u are the player and I am the umpire

That's really stupid and silly

But who cares?

And I really enjoyed the time peeping urs conversation

It's great fun and hilarious

Time just passing too fast

DAMN

u wouldn't believe what I went through this night!!!

The night is so unsuccessful and everything turns out my mind!

the connection is oh-so-fucking slow!!!!

even I felt so embarrassing bcoz my msn appears on and off too frequently

second, and this is all I mad for!

I write yteng an email, my very first time to write my friends an email

I swear I had written thousand words or above!!!

when I was about to finish and to click 'send' the next second

I turn my chair and it slightly hits my cpu

on the sudden, my screen turns black!!!!!!

all my hard work and my affection to Teng are gone!!!

Thousand words of loving thought to her

GONE!!!



I am just feeling everything happened at once

All the matters are freaking me out

the anger and upset I have ever felt since I don't know how long once again came to me

I am real in dark blue

I have no more willpower to rewrite an email

I'm just like.......oh damn i really dunno what to say!!!!!!


I hate my stupidity and extreme dullness and everything drives me to despair and insane!!


OH I hate everything in the world now and even Kimbum appears at my sight I'd like to shout at him too!! I shout I love you


omg this is fucking me!!



Screw the chair I'm sitting on and my freaking sensitive cpu!!!!!


I hate myself being so bold and pert!!!!!!!!

Jinny Joes

I just hope I can get myself a Jinny Joes!


I've got so many bloody things to sort out you wouldn't believe!!!!

GOSH I'd never dump myself to apply U for 2nd time in my life!!!!!

NEVER!!!!

and I'd like not going to post office again!!!!!

Application forms and such documents and everything would be done and settled after Friday!!


Apparently I'm so pissed off right now!

Contentment

What's the feeling of being appreciated by someone meant to u? I don't even know how to judge being appreciated, anyway. Simply about something very pure and flawless overwhelming both of us. I like feeling this way. A comfortable conversation is pleased yet it rarely exists.

Maybe this is a better way to the exit. Starting to be anew, one the other hand. People used to complicate their mind but why not we use the simplest way to solve the clouds in our head?


For somebody, they want to return to their childhood or even they don't want to face the reality of they're gradually growing up and no longer a child, this is perfectly forgivable and understandable. However, many things on earth do not turn out as our wishes.


I truly knew that how cruel and pathetic this society is. You may never know what's going on to you the next second. When the best friend no longer the best, when people you've known very well no longer the one u knew, what would your world turns to? I knew what's this feeling from bottom of my heart.




I love three of us being together and make no sense, fooling around, gossiping, lying on bed and grabbing for the blanket. The moment we looked at our childhood photos and burst out laughing so hard until my eyes filled with tears, the morning that I was wakened by the 'alarm' that LeeDa created specially for me.


I miss the very moments when we are together even I am now still stay at home everyday, everynight. The bond we shared just so strong and powerful. So much fun and laughter. I couldn't imagine the world I'd have during the time at melaka. Never mind I'm alone. There's not scare of being alone, but to leave you all.


All I want is to stay with you for ever.


But sooner or later, I'm going to leave.



There's something important await me. Right?

I write this post with all my love, I love you more than you could imagine. Really I do

I love you baba mummy leeda leejin. I just love u all so so much!!

Muackz

Where Rainbows End

I've finished!!!! It's a fairy tales-liked story and a little bit of magic. The ending is quite curt and hurried though. Anyway, another fantastic work from Ahern!


I just love the book cover!! I'm currently reading this book.

Where Rainbows End



'The land of Ekam Eveileb'



Nothing ventured, nothing gained. -SzEe3

1038

'Life is made up of meetings and partings. People come into ur life everyday, you say good morning, you say good evening, some stay for a few minutes, some stay for a few months, some a year, others a whole lifetime. No matter who it is, you meet and then you part.'


I hate the feeling of being waiting and expecting. Damn it

Mourn for Them

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Horrifying news that I saw from tv lately. Goose pimples even rising on my skin when I saw the bodies of more than 1000 penguins washed up on the beach.

The pic is not found. The scene of the dead penguins chilled me indeed.
They are suppose living happily without man-made interference

Who and what to blame?
Polution? Climate change?

For christ's sake, let the innocent sufferers get away from such natural disaster.


A lesson just as good as any.

Classmate Gathering

I just have no idea what to write about. Here comes up some pics

Date:: 11th March
Time:: 7.30pm~12am
Venue:: Station 1


=A simple gathering before taking spm result=

Finally. Ten of us got to take a pic together
*well ended up we took about ten*

All the girls on that night
*lit black counldn't hold my hp steadily and resulted it become so BLUR!*

Aforehand celebration for me, Xin and ChunPing

We didn't know what's going on. The lights switched off suddenly, I didn't really figure out what was up to us. Anyway, it was a pleasant surprise.

Our b'day cake
*the candle light was actually went out*

This game we played
*I dunno what its called*

Not everyone enjoyed the night, I knew. Because the day after was announcement of spm result. But for me, I was like comeon-non-of-my-business mood, didn't care at all. But right on the moment I took it was another matter XD.

And I recieved this b'day card from Yann




I love u much more than I expected!!!!!


updated:: I wanna watch fast and furious 4!!!!!